Wholesome Gangbangs: That One Time, At Aella’s Birthday Party…

In December 2023, Aella made a post to X (Twitter) sharing a Google application where anyone could sign up to take part in the gangbang. The event inspired reactions and memes over the following days.

Know Your Meme

This post will be even rougher in editing than usual because I wrote so much in my notes.

First things first:

I participated in Aella’s Gangbang, which was awesome¹! And we’re allowed to talk about what happened, but just not who was there (except Aella), so here’s a post about it!

This post includes:

• A bunch of links to others’ posts/podcasts on the topic (first- and second-hand), the most comprehensive I’ve seen to date
• Retelling my Gangbang experience from my limited perspective
• Some of my random thoughts after the fact
• A short Q&A (feel free to ask further questions in the comments below)

The Gangbang

[LR] + End-of-Year 2023 Stories – Relationships, Location Stagnation

The past few months have seen me still in the rural U.S., still underemployed and seeking work, and still with poor logistics for meeting girls ever since my family got involved in my love life. Red Quest has recommended I get a temporary job working in a coffeeshop or restaurant or similar, which I’ve done, but the pay isn’t sufficient for a long-term solution.

There’s a deadline coming up for me within the next few months to change my situation, so I’m not allowing myself to fall stagnant in this current situation. I even took nearly a full month’s break from dating apps and toned down my social media use—it feels too pathetic to count as a win, but compared to past me, it’s another step in the right direction.

As RedQuest reminded me,

Tim [Ferris] says he becomes a slower, duller thinker when he doesn’t write. You probably do, too.

https://twitter.com/david_perell/status/1740017036267266456

Four different new girl stories from NightRoller’s life journal: Two are hot. Two involve relationships. Two are BPD (uh-oh). Two involve blowjobs. All involve sex, the typical minimum barrier I have for recording them in my mind as “significant” without a strong abnormal occurrence, anymore—too many girls are in my phone in the “PHONE ZONE” or Texting Purgatory, where they’d love to think they’re special, but more often than not, it’s them dropping off on me‚ though I’m not the best at sending engaging texts either.

Herein lies one new girl story, plus bonus recurring revenue from past investment.

Super-Attached Movies Girl

This girl I met on a coffee date after matching online with high interest from her end and we immediately hit it off. I posted an initial mention of it on Twitter:

1 was super on from first text: opened me on Tinder with “Hey cutie”, downhill from there. Nice dress, fun personality, +1 in parking lot. Subtracted a point once the dress came off—overweight but doesn’t look it. Lower end of what I’ll take as a regular. Liked her.

A Recent Twitter Post

As she was the only +1 in a while and only girl I could convert to a regular, I was willing to give a bit more effort into this one, gain experience seeing girls multiple times, and so on. But she had a weird thing about not having sex in her room at her house, which resulted in some weird situations when roommates popped through the area she defaulted our activities to. The ironic bit is how she wasn’t comfortable being an exhibitionist around her roommates despite her choice of setting.

For the first couple dates it felt very easy to communicate with her, but later it became more one-way as she prattled on and on about dumb movie stuff and I couldn’t think of good topics to steer the conversation. She had a high desire to dump her daily life trauma, exaggerated like it was the best or worst thing in the world, expressed over text or in person. She had very little drive to ask me questions or learn about me. By the end, from my perspective, she still seemed to know very little about me besides my habits. I was fetishized as the attractive man of her dreams.

I noted in private, “My only current plate is quite overweight and seems to have no drive to change that and a high desire to gossip about all sorts of dumb menial work and movie related things, sending 3-12 texts a day to my 0-3. I tire of it but don’t want to let her go because of the neediness that’ll set in after a few weeks.” Her low attractiveness took a lot of the enjoyment out of sex, once we were seeing each other regularly (she really did look beautiful when I first picked her up and took her for coffee—how easy a horny man can trick himself). I used the chances we had to stave off my insecurity and give her and I more BDSM experience, plus giving her addictively good-enough sex besides.

I felt the objectification even more acutely when she got upset about me wanting to leave and totally ignoring how I felt about wanting to leave when I finally did so, cutting dating apps, reducing my attempts to reignite faltering text leads, and cutting this girl out in the process. She was far too attached (even getting me gifts and things) when I was seeing her as barely more than a f*ckbuddy, and had apparently built what we were into enough hope that she wasn’t able to see reality.

She was so superinvested, even when I went through the process of giving her a final goodbye date where she tried to convince me we could “work out”, convinced that it could work out anyway, that what we “had” was “perfect”. She even offered to have me live at her place to try and solve the logistics issue, a move I understood (would create more logistics problems than it solved and) would not last long-term when our “relationship” was so untested. I made the effort on that last date to challenge her thinking with some beneficial stoic philosophy, asking her to think about how our “relationship” ending could be a positive thing for me AND for her.

So invested was she that daily emotional paragraph texts 2-3 screenshots long arrived for about a week, and afterward she seemed to want to get bitter or resentful or blow up an argument to make it easier to demonize me in her mind. If you saw RedQuest’s recent post, this is the girl in question I was asking about.

She’s the kind of person who likes to think of people as her emotional wet wipes (“friends”) or as her enemies, and it seemed to frustrate her on some level that she couldn’t firmly stuff me into either box.

Halloween Month Highlight

I had the luck of an unexpected rebound of my “Seductress Girl” while visiting friends in my college town. Last I’d heard she had a boyfriend (I planned to just visit and chat with her platonically), but she revealed that had ended and she was now seeing a different guy and trying to see if he was the guy for her commitment needs. She’s adamant about wanting a committed monogamous partner and kids. I’m encouraging her to go after what she wants, and except for this magical instance, she’s mostly been consistent in her actions towards chasing that goal.

It was a little awkward when I showed up because she was tired from work that day and only gave amber lights about sex until she was moaning on her bed (I’d purposely kept her and myself in limbo about if sex would happen to avoid possible cold feet, which is kinda dumb in retrospect with returning girls like her—as a concept, it’s really used to avoid flakes for first-time meetings. Anyway, I didn’t want to push for sex if she wanted to keep committed to her partner at the time).

Some of the joy of the moment was sucked out by reminiscing about our previous times, comparing to this one, and expecting more from her (in eagerness, in dominance, etc.), but it escalated to a quite pleasant single round and massage for her and a reminder for me about how yes, she was hot, but no, she wasn’t a divine fluke of the past. Kinky girls like her may yet exist in my future.

We still follow each other on social media. She posted holiday pics of herself and her boyfriend last week. Good for her.

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That’s all for now! The next bit will come when I get done editing it. All of the main ideas have been brain-dumped already, and it’s a doozy.

Keep on rolling, and write your own stories. I once again put off writing a post due to a (perceived) lack of content to write, which is dumb. That’s not a terrible thing except that I didn’t want to put it off this long once the content started to accumulate. Even when I think I don’t have much to say, all I have to do is wait, and more adventures and stories come along to entertain and give advice. And keeping these stories locked up for too long isn’t helping me either.

—NightRoller

+2 Lucky Week (And Kinky Wrestling) – Back in Rural U.S.

6 dates with 6 different girls in the span of 7 consecutive days! (Caveat: you only see the tip of the spear–overnight successes aren’t quite overnight; this is the culmination of a lot of work on my part to have enough of the good text skills and little enough of the bad to set up this many dates and run them well.) Writing this post is a win, but several posts are still overdue (Krakow, Riga, and Amsterdam) for the long stretches of what felt like little-to-nothing. I don’t want to pretend this is all a rosy picture, but I know from reading several of RedQuest’s relationship updates how interesting and entertaining it can be to read these kinds of success posts about the most interesting of topics¹. Tinder and Hinge have finally delivered on their sales promises for once.

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• First, +1 from a long-time lead on Tinder in my home area. I first fingered her over a year ago in the back of my car (see the “6” I mentioned near the end of this post, who I’d now see as a 5.5 in looks), back when I just lost my virginity. I’ve come quite a ways, but I’m still corny and cringe a lot of the time and I’m slow/hesitant to escalate. I stutter and overthink, and then overthink about my overthinking, even when in awesome situations where the stars align like the last of these stories (foreshadowing). Got the notch in the one logistical area I’ve carved out some privacy that’s not my car, followed by making lunch and driving her home.

Being in a rural area sucks. Daygame and nightgame are nonexistent. Social circle is crippled. Online dating, the only feasible option, is pitiful at best*.

Move ASAP if you live rural. Move to a big city.

Applying this advice myself—currently stuck in Nowheresville.

— NightRoller (@NightRollerGame) September 21, 2023

• Next, 1 coffee date on Tuesday with a cutish girl. Not much to say here other than she mentioned she’s not really into physical touch off the bat. Part of me wants the challenge of getting close to her, but looking back, I’m more inclined to drop her. She hasn’t been very forthcoming about her schedule or to set up a second date until a couple weeks from now, but has provided a valid reason for it. We’ll see how it goes.

• 2 coffee dates on Friday; one of them was with a cute girl I vibed quite well with. Nerdy, somewhat quiet/awkward in an endearing way, self-aware, asked me questions more than I asked her, and I calibrated by asking her questions directly instead of assuming she’d volunteer her input. Liked the neck kiss I gave her. Date 2 at hers scheduled for next week. Feels like one of the type of girl who usually likes me who I’m confident I can close, on the upper cusp of my ability to the point I will probably want to keep seeing her regularly if she’s receptive to my advances.
• The other coffee date was very socially awkward and not well-kempt and kind of reminding me of a fish, not blinking much and not really having much tension in the air through our eye contact. Strong smell when she sat down and teeth stains kind of dissuaded me from prioritizing her, though her schedule is free this week; I’ve planned a date with her soon but she’s going to be a low-end FwB if that.
• Finally, stood up by a third girl for a planned Friday “video game date”, which she apologized profusely for missing and heartily agreed on the idea of meeting in person to game instead of the video game date (I was only half feeling the video game date but was curious to give it a shot; I paid and downloaded it because it was one I wanted to play eventually^tm anyway), but still hasn’t gotten back to me on her schedule for². As I’ve learned from practice and from Playing with Fire’s texting examples, patience usually pays off, so I won’t be pushing her with several messages in a short span of time, and I won’t book calendar details until it’s a confirmed date.

• 1 coffee date Saturday, even cuter than her pics on Tinder and really cool, felt good about her. Date scheduled for hers next week, but need to confirm her address and, if possible, some food preferences. Cute, short, big ass, a pretty normal girl with a bit of an ego, out of my comfort-zone in what I’ve had reference experiences with. She talked about opinionated politics too much. I awkward-bluntly told her we’ve talked about politics a lot on this first date, and “while I find it interesting and would love to continue some other time, I’d like to learn other things about her instead”. Was difficult to turn on the non-platonic sexual tension during this date. I managed to fumble through by talking about some of my interests sexually in a general, albeit non-smooth, fashion (hoping also to screen her out if she was a total prude). She seems like she doesn’t have a lot of actual sex experience, a yellow flag. Proceeding with cautious interest but if she does put out I’m up with an ongoing thing with her

The Part You Came To Read

• +1 with a girl just yesterday (Sunday) from the Fet app, which is usually dismal or slow (but lets you message girls without having to match first, similar to PoF but actually designed for a phone and actively moderated to remove bots and spammers–I could share some of my strategies for this particularly janky, weird app-that-sometimes-precipitates-gold if there’s interest). In this case I needed out and rolled the nat-20-level positive outcome: awesome sex with a high-libido kinky pagan girl who physically couldn’t have kids and had a thing for breeding.

For reference, this is now my default mindset when it comes to sex (I quoted it once before in this post):

You should be thinking: “I am going to give this girl a great experience, she is going to feel comfortable, and interested, and cared for, I’ll pace where she is at sexually, I’ll read her, I’ll respond to what I see she needs, she’ll feel that response (specifically), we’ll move forward as she is ready… and of course great sex will be part of that. ” Do that… and never go any faster than it takes for her to feel all of that from you.

Nash, but I can’t find which article to link, so here’s an applicable one

That’s what I took along for the ride here, but there wasn’t much to calibrate to. I was horny, she was horny, I showed up and wasn’t weird, things got physical. She’d never met a guy from the Fet app before, somehow.³

• I was so excited after this sexperience that I was typing in runon sentences to some of my mentors that night. She looked decent in her photos, but when I drove to meet her, she looked like a high school wet dream in person, with a fantastic personality and respectable ENM BF to boot⁴. She eben dressed in a bottomless outfit for me⁵. She was incredibly hot in bed and a 7 or 8 in looks–hot enough I didn’t bother keeping track. Her makeup (not much, but the things that do it for me) and her bubbly-yet-intelligent, amiable personality made a difference in her presence in photos online vs in person.

• Plus she was a switch. Oh, boy was she a switch. She loved being tossed around or pinned down (something I need to work on more with help from the gym!) only slightly more than she enjoyed turning the tables and doing the same to me.

• I can’t satisfy her every kinky appetite, but because of her BF, I didn’t need to–I did everything I could remember learning or practicing, including light touches, nail rubs, asking whether she likes a certain thing, telling her my weaknesses, feeling the thrill like a rollercoaster when she sprung up from my grasp and pinned me down, literally wrestling at one point⁶ when the idea of CNC came up, talking dirty to her, and many other things.

• I tried new things I hadn’t before. She’s far more experienced than me, with over a decade to my >1 year having sex, so I took the chance to learn things while giving her as much pleasure as I can. She mentioned to me today the following day that she was thinking about Sunday night all day long. Honestly, it was one of the best experiences I’ve had in the bedroom of two switches having the grandest time turning each other on, rivaling even the memorable times I had with the Nerdy Nympho and the Seductress Girl.

This post doesn’t really capture how awesome it felt in the moment, having sex with an active girl instead of a shy one scared of her sexuality⁷.

“Ohmygoodness, am I even alive right now? I hope she’s not judging me for not knowing what to do now that I have her pinned by the neck. Holy shit her tits are so hot. Wow her body just makes me want to gobble her up somehow. I want to save this memory into a literal video format and replay it at will. This is life lived to the fullest. Mmm I love when she moves her lips like that. Oh, she just grabbed my neck and got on top! What’s going to happen next! Will I let her stay up her long, or wrestle her back down!? Why isn’t sex a sport–if sometimes done casually, there should be competitive! Oh my gosh I’m so lucky to be having sex with this inspiring sexy girl whose boyfriend is literally just arriving home and consents to her playing like this. I love teasing these tits, I wonder if she wants me to twist/suck harder.”

Yes, this is your window into NightRoller’s ape mind while in the middle of sex. I love sex, and now even my conservative family has begun to notice in my mannerisms and habits.

• With a breeding kink and inablity to have any (more) kids⁸, so she invited me to cum inside her. (Having already ensured we’re both disease free and recently tested over text) I did inside her, twice. Now I worry if I’ll be able to come using condoms again. She had 3-8⁹ orgasms, over two rounds of sex, in the first time we met. I want to invest in one of those special pills because for the second round, we kept having to give my rod extra attention to make it usably firm. That gave me more practice at giving orders like “suck my cock” when she reminded me that she liked the assertiveness.

• Several times she mentioned how she thought I was nerdy-cute, much cuter in person than my photos online, and sweet (and other compliments that my crumbling past insecurity managed to make me forget already). The kicker was the 2 times she said she was surprised I’m still single, which bodes well for my future dating prospects if a confident girl¹⁰ I find this attractive is fucking me and asking me why I’m not in a relationship yet. #eligiblebachelor

• I have a ways to go when it comes to being assertive/leading in bed/throwing the girl around, but this girl was patient and wouldn’t judge me as I fumbled as long as I was doing enough right for the both of us. Kind of reminded me of some of the stories RedQuest had with Peaches on his blog. I also want to become even more muscular to better lay her out in bed for both our delight and pleasure >:)

• From YouTube videos by Andy/KillYourInnerLoser, I had heard that brattiness is more of a playful kind of dynamic, with teasing, and I had never experienced that in an actual sex session before I did in this one. Now I know what real brattiness can be like, and as far as teasing and playful brattiness (not insulting or rude per se, tone of voice conveys the subtext) goes, I LOVE IT. This may be the submissive side of me coming out, but I loved the teasing and wanted more and more (until she got bored and I took control accordingly).

• I plan to meet her again eventually, but after sex this good sleep is alluring. Bit of a long drive¹¹ but she made it well worth the time and effort. Her BF was pretty cool too as far as dudes go¹². I may decide to get into swinging and MFMs at this rate!

Quick Recap

That’s 6 dates in 7 days, 2 of which turned into sex. And I live in the middle of NOWHERE! 30 minutes to the nearest small city, 20 to the nearest town, 15 to the nearest “village” (as Europeans would call it).

I’m very lucky this week, and better than usual at capitalizing on luck when it appears. That is, I tend to see it as getting lucky, but where putting in positive effort makes me lucky more of the time or tips the odds of a great date with a low flake rate even higher.

It’s not pure luck, that’s for sure. But having this much success in a single week in this area is lucky, with sub-par dating apps to thank (could it be that the pictures I had taken in Europe, specifically Krakow [link when I eventually write that post], are helping put me at the top of guys in my area?).

This is an example of abundance, and even a couple days since having experienced that fantastic sexcapade I notice a nonchalance boost in my interactions with women. It feels like I don’t mind if most or all of these semi-decent leads disappear, though I’ll continue with my current “bumfuck-nowhere” system to cultivate them. I’m honestly aiming for a longer-term (but at least partly open) relationship, get experience, beat my old record of 5-6 weeks. And for the foreseeable future (the next 2 weeks), it looks like my schedule will be relatively full of cute girls. From a certain point of view, I’m living a fantasy¹³.

Keep Rolling,

– NightRoller

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1. Duh, sex! Did you expect me to say bunnies? ↩︎
2. Note: She and I are texting on this as I write. Could actually sift a real date out of this, and she is pretty cute in the “girl next door” kind of way in her Tinder pictures. Several others who show initial interest drop off randomly though, as I’ve had happen with about 3 of the leads I converted to phone text from the apps this past week and a half, so “wait and see” is the name of the game. ↩︎
3. I found out during intra-round conversation that every other guy so far has ghosted her, some even saying “five minutes away” while not actually showing up (she texted me the day before that she’d like it if I texted her if I couldn’t make it instead of ghosting or blocking). It’s probably quite the torment for such a libidinous girl, so just by doing the bare decent minimum plus having semidecent game I was able to be one of the best out of the hundreds of messages she got daily. ↩︎
4. On this, she had several rules for me to follow with her set up by her primary partner for her safety. Most of them didn’t come up at all, but one was the desire to keep things NSA and no emotional attachments, just wild animalistic abandon as an outlet for this high-libido girl. But that also means beyond basic aftercare I don’t have to worry about keeping up after her, or making sure she’s satiated. She’s horny enough she wanted me to return the following night, though I didn’t have the time or energy. Being Ethically Non-Monogamous seems like it fits her well though, very congruent to her psychology and habits. ↩︎
5. Apparently she first tried doing a shibari dress but couldn’t get it together because she was so excited ↩︎
6. Obligatory footnote where I gush about how damn fun it was to have this playful tussle dynamic, where each of us would be trying to get the other caught. We were both quite horny and having a good time so it quickly devolved into her showing me another fun sex position ↩︎
7. Or a starfish for that matter ↩︎
8. Yes, I found out she’s not just my fantasy’s wet dream turned up to 11, she’s also a MILF ↩︎
9. (it was rather unclear but I know she came at least 3 times) ↩︎
10. who, I might add, I found inspiring in character and communicative ability, plus the added fun of her liking corny mid-sex jokes as much as I ↩︎
11. (not that long for the area I live comparatively yet long by normal standards) ↩︎
12. And this girl mentioned she was a mess before she met her “Daddy”, who helped her put her life in order. She’s smart as is, but it reminded me of the concept I’d heard that “good girls aren’t found, they’re made”. This one was made very well and I want to be the kind of guy building up a girl or girls like that in the next five or so years. This kind of human mutual improvement through sex or a relationship or, otherwise, mentorship, is an ideal of mine.
    So a cool guy not only in personality, but by the fruits of his actions. ↩︎
13. Other parts of my life are falling behind somewhat however: gym, career, business ↩︎